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(break.my.body) woahh [24 Aug 2006|09:22am] [ mood | sick ] [ music | felix da housecat-sinnerman ] have not updated in awhile!! no one cares too much, for those who haven't seen me i have blonde a lot shorter hair. I do things I never thought I would do. I now work at hot topic and may get a job at purple east.I will hopefully be attending douglas J in october! yeee!

(3 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [14 Feb 2006|04:25pm] [ mood | awake ] newwww hair

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [11 Feb 2006|09:54am] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | armor for sleep-basement ghost singing ] I found a freckle on the side of my face today that i have never noticed before.. I decided I didn't like it officially.

(break.my.body) life today consists of [08 Feb 2006|05:02pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | norma jean ] eating a gigantic pickle... wearing a mini skirt.. and the best t-shirt ever.. about to dye my hair all crazy like.. today is good.

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) life today consists of [08 Feb 2006|05:01pm] eating a gigantic pickle... wearing a mini skirt.. and the best t-shirt ever.. about to dye my hair all crazy like.. today is good.

(break.my.body) could I get any lamer? [05 Jan 2006|09:29am] [ mood | lethargic ] [ music | dripping of some sort? ] wow haven't been on this in forever.. guess it is pretty lame but hey when your bored like me still up at 9:29 am and still not tired what else is there for you to do? Yeah... update your live journal. Well let me tell you what i have been up to lately, I recently got an apartment with my bestfriend Bee Jay, I got my heartbroken, I have no job (your asking me "how does she pay rent?" right? good question) I have been trying to occupy myself with adventurous, artsy, decorative,things so i wont think of the boy that broke my heart, Yeah i know how lame right? yeah I have nothing much to say really... oh yeah who wants to bbe my new boyfriend? ha any takers? come on... Okay let me know ha. Fuck I am lame.

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [18 Oct 2005|03:54pm] [ mood | amused ] I dyed my hair black so I can be Bettie Page for halloween

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [29 Aug 2005|10:43pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | Elliott Smith ] wow haven't written in this thing in a long while.. I really don't know what to say quite yet.

(2 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [20 Feb 2005|04:11pm] Best Picture ever!

(break.my.body) [20 Feb 2005|11:59am] [ mood | hung over ] [ music | Mars Volta ] I had an urge to update to tell you all this.. I have a boyfriend. mmm fucking hmmm

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [12 Jan 2005|12:03pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | radiohead ] I hate this place..This home, this school, this life. Sadness has come over me once again, This time i really have no reason. It's a feeling where you know something is wrong but you do not know what it is. So this saturday i have work off.. sweet. You know what i will be doing don't you? if you guessed sleeping you are precisely right... I have nothing better to do. If you want to do something with me ask me.

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [07 Jan 2005|09:50pm] [ mood | infuriated ] [ music | annihilation-apc ] I think I cracked. I had it with T.J Maxx... I am getting a new job and then immediatly quiting. I hate it and loath it with the deepest passion of my heart. After graduation I am moving far far away from here with my mom for a little bit. We may move out of state most likely flordia. SWEET. I am ready to be done with grand rapids and all its people except my friends. I would miss them but I will visit.

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [06 Jan 2005|02:18pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Imagine- A perfect circle ] I don't like my live journal anymore but i decided to post anyways... I haven't been doing much lately. I have been sleeping my life away it seems but Its kind of nice to rest for awhile instead of always being somewhere. I am always tired and I don't really know why. My brothers birthday is this sunday he would have been 13! a damn teenager. God, do I miss him, He brought alot of happiness and humor to my life. It will be two years since his death on January 21st :(. I want to buy the new APC cd because I love it! The song imagine is stuck in my head right now. Ithink i will post the lyrics and that will conclude my entry: Imagine there's no heaven, It's easy if you try, No hell below us, Above us only sky, Imagine all the people living for today... Imagine there's no countries, It isnt hard to do, Nothing to kill or die for, No religion too, Imagine all the people living life in peace... You may say Im a dreamer, but Im not the only one, I hope some day you'll join us, And the world will live as one. (Imagine all the people sharing all the world) Imagine no possesions, I wonder if you can, No need for greed or hunger, A brotherhood of man, Imagine all the people Sharing all the world... You may say Im a dreamer, but Im not the only one, I hope some day you'll join us, And the world will live as one.

(break.my.body) [29 Dec 2004|07:13pm] [ mood | lethargic ] If you love someone set them free...

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [19 Dec 2004|12:05pm] [ mood | weird ] I admire aLLies beauty. I wish we were still best friends. I am happy that she is happy though. but i still miss her. I miss beth and all her cheerfulness. Shes has so much beauty and she makes me happy. I love when we get together because we just do crazy shit without worrying. I LOVE YOU BETH. I miss you more.

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [14 Dec 2004|01:45pm] deleting this journal.

(break.my.body) TooL [08 Dec 2004|11:52am] [ music | tool-stinkfist ] I just had to post this song. Something has to change. Un-deniable dilemma. Boredom’s not a burden Anyone should bear. Constant over stimulation numbs me But I wouldn’t want you Any other way. Just, not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I said, I don’t want it. I just need it. To breathe, to feel, to know I’m alive. Finger deep within the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together. Relax, turn around and take my hand. I can help you change Tired moments into pleasure. Say the word and we’ll be Well upon our way. Blend and balance Pain and comfort Deep within you Till you will not want me any other way. But, it’s not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I said, I don’t want it. I just need it. To breathe, to feel, to know I’m alive. Knuckle deep inside the borderline. This may hurt a little but it’s something you’ll get used to. Relax. slip away. Something kinda sad about The way that things have come to be. Desensitized to everything. What became of subtlety? How can it mean anything to me If I really don’t feel anything at all? I’ll keep digging till, I feel something. Elbow deep inside the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together. Shoulder deep within the borderline. Relax. turn around and take my hand.

(2 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [02 Dec 2004|10:20am] i feel so empty

(5 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [22 Nov 2004|09:25pm] [ mood | ugly. fuck it. oh well. ] [ music | sonic youth-kissability ] looking in the mirror each day holding on to an image that will never fade "this is me" she said with her voice quivering and tears streaming down her face " and I will never be beautiful in your eyes, I will never be beautiful in their eyes and I will never be beautiful in my eyes." I'm sorry. Forgive me. -ashlee

(1 hold.my.bones | break.my.body) [13 Nov 2004|11:45am] [ mood | happy ] I am sooo stoked for the pixies tonight!!! ahhhhhh!

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